Why I cheated

There is much speculation surrounded my golf career and whether or not I cheated.  I refuse to admit defeat.  That is my weakness; I hate the feeling when I know someone thinks I am weak.  There was one goal for me during that tournament and it was to win, there was no way I was leaving without a first place.  In the moment it was worth it and it still is because that is what I've been working to practically my whole life.  I do have a feeling though that in my elder years I will wish I did not cheat.  As for now though, no one knows I did because all the accusations were rescinded and the whole deal is just blown over with.  Whenever there has been a task whether in the social ladder, the male specimen, the athletics or money I become ruthless.  Cheating makes me feel alive because I'm living on the edge you could say and if I were to be caught it would liven things up a bit.  Not only does it liven things up but it is a strategy.  People are aware of how difficult playing by the rules can be, but when you are in front of so many breaking the rules it becomes more of a challenge.  Not necessarily a challenge to win (even though that is the end goal) but a challenge to not be caught.  Life is boring without a couple rule breakers, and the only thing I cheated in here was a golf tournament, I did not cheat someone out of their life's work or money.  I didn't ruin any lives, and besides I was the likely candidate to win anyway so no one was affected greatly in my winning.